Funny how quickly summer escapes us. From June to now has been a whirlwind of events. Florida, Sarah's amazing performance as Fiona in Shrek, and graduation parties coming up this week.
But the best part of all has been Daniel's solid health. He has not had a problem in so long. I loved seeing how happy he was down in Florida. Here, it's not as much fun because we don't have a pool, but we do the best that we can.
And from a heart felt post about how a dog could improved Daniel's life, came a chain of wonderful events that landed a small puppy into my loving arms. He is a Coton De Tulear puppy, and he will be trained over the next however long, to be a service dog and Daniel's companion. But he is a social little guy, and is taking the world by storm.
I'm busy, and very tired but the pup is filling an emotional void that I have. Well, my birthday came and went too. I've always been a big birthday person, but this year it was a disaster. Worse than Mother's day. On my birthday Sarah had her Shrek performances, so that part was wonderful. But the next day was supposed to be our celebration day. John got angry over a football helmet, just as we were leaving to go out, and he left the car. He went into the house. And didn't speak for a day or two. My birthday never happened. I felt heartbroken, and hurt by the man who is supposed to be my partner and friend. I don't understand why I even expect happiness anymore around here. He never even showed that he cared or it bothered him. So even when I feel sad, I look at Daniel and Sarah and Thomas and my animals and they all love me so much... They are my source of strength. They and God.
So Daniel is finishing up his last week of summer program. I have so much to do for him, from a broken foot lift on his bed, to a muffler falling off of the Big Van. And switching his GI care to Yale, and finding out what the next steps are to increasing his weight bearing and movement. He needs more of my attention. Way more. He doesn't like it when I leave him with a nurse all weekend... and neither do I. Something has to give alittle.
But we are getting ready to help Sarah go to Wagner College and start her new life there. I know the boys will miss her and I know it will affect Daniel. How could it not? She is a vibrant, loud, lively, dynamic part of this house. I will miss her.
So that's the latest buzz. Tonight is the first night of Football practice for Thomas and the weather is spectacular!! And of course Henry will be there!!
In my heart of hearts I feel like the world is just throwing wrenches at me left and right but I am tough enough. I have a lonely heart lately though, and that is the heart that is all Julie. Not Julie as mother. Julie as caregiver. But Julie as woman. And its something I have to work on.
OK. What was I saying, Football?? Yes. Football. And so it begins again. Life is good.
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