I sit here on December 20th, 2011. In room 716 of CCMC in Hartford. Listening to Daniel moan, cough, gag, go quiet... Periodically the nurses or respiratory technicians come in for treatment. Today was rough. After over a week of fever... the fever was 104 this morning. Rushed to Danbury hospital. Diagnosed pneumonia.... and it was deja vu but worse. And I sit here...listening to the buzzes and beeping of the hospital. Wondering exactly what I should write....but its getting harder every day. Scoliosis is worsening for my Daniel which means a surgery is probably imminent. But its 4 days before Christmas...and I have nothing finished... I don't even know if we will be home for Christmas. I don't even know who I am today.... But Daniel needs me...he holds my hand and looks at me. I know he's thinking...MOM WHAT IS GOING ON ....
If only I could take away his pain....but I can't. Tomorrow I will get the blood results and x ray results... We shall see.
HA HA HA normally I love holiday gatherings, cookies, giving little gifts, mailing greeting cards....and just loving the sights of the season.
Today I sit in a hospital... not caring about the sights...because all I can hear are beeps and coughs and gags followed by more beeps.
Please pray for my Daniel Hasselberger who has a left lung pneumonia with fluid today. We deserve Christmas as a family...even if we can't afford anything.
I joked last week that Daniel was my Tiny Tim... But its not even funny now.
Back to bedside duty. Mommy is totally exhausted. Hungry. Thirsty...but sleeping first.
I love all of the warm and caring messages that are coming our way. Thank you, one and all.
jhasselberger@snet.net
Julie Hasselberger
35 Bennetts Bridge Road
Sandy Hook, CT 06482
203 4268674
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