Julie's random thoughts

Sometimes I wonder what it will take for me to flip the trigger and push myself even harder on all things.  I feel too complacent. Tonight I watched "my 600 pound life" and I was mesmermized by how those people struggled.  I certainly know that I have to lose some weight. But I relate on the issue of food addiction.  I guess I just have to keep trying. 

I'm suffering from extreme nauseau and migraine headaches at the moment. Since about 5:00 ish I have felt sick. 

It's no picnic. 

The air is bitter and another Nor Easter is set to hit tonight.  I am hearing about a foot of snow? It's life in the winter world. I suppose we just have no choice but to cope. Find the fun in it.

I just really want to feel better.  It's been months of feeling ill, feeling nauseau, the fibro pain, and horrendous headaches.  The doctors send me round and round in circles. 

Daniel and I will have our day tomorrow. As there is no school.  Then in Friday I take him to Yale Children's Hospital for an appointment with endocrinology. 

And the calendar is full of appointments and therapy all being juggled and changed because of the recurring theme of "winter storm warning"

I'm cold tonight.  My boys are all sleeping like babies. John, Daniel, Thomas and Henry. 

Winter really is a reflective sort of month. But it imprisons you as well. I stepped out and joined the gym club 24. But I have not gone yet.  What is wrong with me?   

For tonight, as the cold air takes it's grip, just remember to keep praying.  People need prayer this time of year, it can be a real downer. 

Me? Julie Mother ? I know in tired when my eyes keep closing while I type this.  

I am so busy all day that sometimes my mind goes jumbled. It's a new day saeaZ. I'm CCDs.  That nonsense was the result of my Klonopin kicking in to put me to sleep. 

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